It’s the last day of NaBloPoMo, and our internet has been out all afternoon. The cable company’s automated message still says the same thing now that it did when I first called. “We’re sorry for the inconvenience. Our technicians are working as fast as they can. Our account representatives don’t have any further information.”
Those who don’t understand might just say, “See? So you can’t get your post done. It’s Sunday night. Why stress yourself out about it? You got all your other posts done on time this month. That’s good enough. No one would blame you.”
But that’s just it. This was never about anybody else. This was always about me and my commitment, to myself, to get it done. To write and post every single day without fail. 30 days straight of blogging and posting and writing without reservation, regardless of how smart it sounds, and without quitting.
It’s true that nobody else would hold me to the challenge. No one else would judge me for my circumstance. But I know where there’s a will, there’s a way. And as long as there’s a way for me, there’s no way I can give in. As long as I haven’t tried everything I know to do, then I haven’t won. I haven’t won a thing.
It doesn’t matter what somebody else knows or sees.
It matters that I know.
So I’m outside with my cell phone and my WordPress app, standing underneath my giant trees. I’m using the Christmas lights we just put up today to see what I’m doing and poke away at my keyboard, while seeking a better cell signal. I’m not very good with these phone keyboards, but I’m hacking away at it anyway.
The weather is perfect. The lighting romantic. I can see the cable trucks on my street working away. And the neighborhood’s Christmas lights are just as pretty as ours. Somewhere above, a half-moon hides behind the clouds, and I feel blessed.
I’ve completed the challenge. The Christmas season is here. And I’m ready to begin a new week.
Thanks for tagging along on my ride. Thanks for all the support. And thanks for being who you are, doing what you do, and for being that light you are in the world.
Carpe equito y’all. Seize the ride. And maybe a margarita too. Cheers!
Talk to you soon. Hopefully with a little more planning next time! 🙂