Today is tough.
Today’s my birthday and John’s birthday is in 6 days. The weekend between our birthdays was always our standing annual date weekend. We’ve almost never thrown birthday parties for ourselves. Instead we focused on our own personal celebration. And my motto has always been to set aside October as our birthday month to do something memorable each year. It’s so easy for the monotony of work, duty and stress to just blend all your memories together into one mushy pile. But for our birthday month, I would try to do something memorable – something unique just to feed the soul – and set things apart. A deposit into that bank account of fun, positive experiences in life.
For John and I, regardless of how busy or crazy the year was, we had this standing date with each other that we looked forward to. Our October weekend birthday date. Our fun date. We tried never to break it. Of course we always tried to do something nice for our anniversary on December 23rd, but our birthday date weekend was something fun and a creation all ours I guess.
Our date this year would have fallen tonight. And then this week would have been our special week. We would have tried to at least make dinner creative most nights this week. Both John and I love to cook. Sometimes for our date, he’d make some amazing creative dish. His venison round steak with spicy Magic Bourbon Sauce was out of this world and probably my favorite of his creations. John’s skill with food often left us disappointed if we went out, so eating in was not uncommon.
His absence is punctuated right now. And it really hurts.
So I’m hanging with my two favorite people in the world.
Our kids. And soaking it in.
Love you honey. Wish you were here.
6 responses to “HBD…”
Happy Birthday. I’m so sorry for your terrible loss, and hope this year will be one of healing and hope, peace and ease. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Thank you so much! ❤❤
I’m so sorry, Julia. Take it one second at a time if that’s all you can manage.
Thank you Amy. His funeral is in a week. ❤❤
((Hugs)) nothing I can write will help, but you know people care.
Thank you! ❤❤